She sat in that big bed of Heston’s and she thought , she twirled her Songbird’s feather and it was silent !
She reached out and saw and felt the Gold Pebbles , the seeds that had been dropped by him and planted : the Gold pebble seeds- that held their enchantments and gifts!
The beginning seeds of a world within worlds !
She got up and went over to the fire place , he had set it !
The Songbird ‘s lament was quiet , he had passed over and gone from her !
She didn’t cry for him anymore !
She wsd angry with him!
For his stupid behaviours and trying to steal her gold pebbles and the way he had treated her the last time, the time before that and on and one before , before until she went back and realised that he had just been taking advantage of ber : kind hearts.
Try as she might over and over to be down right as hateful and hurtful as him …. she just couldn’t do it !
She was always her kind and loving and loving and healing self !
She kneeled down in front of the fire place and found the secret space in the floor boards , she pushed and there it was her mother’s small crockpot , the Groudinf flat stone
And the salt , the herbs and she had her blood !
She started the fire and placed the now Spellbound Oncher Crockpot I to the embers base , on a small little trivet stand !
The salt circle was poured so she was surrounded and protected!
She them took the salt the herbs the layers of garlic and onion skin her mother had left her and the herbs – lavender and rosemary and thyme with the hint of her mother’s and grandmother ‘s and the Ancients cardamom and cinnamon blend and let it burn and scent the room !
She took a drop of her blood and her Songbird ‘s feather whiff was silent …
No sound in space , no vibrations , no hint of the love they once had shared , bis cruelty had made them silent !
The feather tip pierced her lip and blood suctioned up into its core !
She threw it into the Spellpot and felt it burn and burn and burn , blood oath dissipated !
No sound .
No vibration!
No Song .
They were no more !
She had fainted and her wings and tail and spread out !
She felt his blows all of them thay had sung out and hurt her and HATE filled her … Heston and come in with that vibe and smiled her darkness , binding her to him!
He let the silence build as he watched ber HATE , build as the memories of how badly her Songbird had treated her pulsed within her veins !
Her wings spread out and became dark and bleed and glowed , the hematite with diamond and gold and silver sparkles throughout her wings with her deepened dark blood and her Poison Avy self with her green earthy and flowery poisonous elements erupting in scent around her !
Heston moved to his bed and let her be.
Her Dark Lord let her be , he just loved her,
He sat in silence as her blood oath to her Songbird disintegrated and HATE for how he had treated her took over !
She glowed and HATE heard her and broke into her hearts and surrounded her in a dark purple and green haze !
One by one they came , had their interlude and let her down.
Did love actually stop ?
LOVE TURNED TO HATE!
When did HATE OVERPOWER LOVE?
She knew the exact moment, moments there were two.
Her Songbird , her chosen Songbird had been ripped from her.
She didn’t cry.
She didn’t move.
She didn’t say a word.
Black blood tears began to pump and fall.
She bleed out with sheer pain.
The Darkness within her came .
HATE healed and surrounded and began a NEW AFFAIR within her.
She knew what was happening and she felt a second wave of fire and heat and pain.
Her Dark band had opened the first step.
She recited her litany and saw the words be expelled into the Universe as the good from within them were sent out as a last plea…………….
Please pass this message on for me, she cried out to The Universe. Let the Generate propagate their fate.
Did the Kurghan ever have to ask for anything twice?
Isn’t it time to try to make amends ?
Did you have to stand by and watch me loose my place of safety and security , my ” Shangri- La” , my home.
I did not have to help.
No she did not.
She helped for one person and one person alone.
She sent out into the Universe the last plea for The ONE, to return her home.
To settle the amounts owed to her, to her alter EGO, to all their children.
To honour the sacrifices that the little children had made for him , for her.
Did anyone care ? She wondered if it was a futile exercise ?
She missed her mother. She was so far a way now. Not an Ocean or planet a way. Her mother was now on the other side of the Veil.
They had missed holidays and treats . They simplified their lives to help , as the promises , empty promises were made.
She remembered the sheer amount of pure ” abuse” she put up with , everytime she entered that Dwelling.
The trips were hard sometimes. The outtings. She wondered if the One had the same on the other side of the receiving end of the line , for it all !
She couldn’t imagine , how hard it was for the One. She shook her head.
She had stopped believing almost.
She welcomed a new way.
She arose from this Catastrophe changed. She flew up and out with her new blackened heart strings. They were being strum and played by Prince Heston Azar, the Dark Lord Prince.
She let the Songbirds’ Call go.
There would only ever be one Songbird’s Call , she would hold onto !
The others would be surprised.
She would always hear his call.
She held onto the most Beautiful, the most talented, the others paled in comparison to him. He was glorious , in his being , his self, his arts, his crafts. No one was or ever will be like him. Unique and brilliant in all he does.
This Songbird’s Call was hers & she would not ever let it go!
A distant memory as the Darkened Phoenix Butterflairy arose , in her Glory.
She called YRA to her and they flew up and out together. Yes, the Darkness had come out and joined forces.
The Jesters danced their dance, long into the night.
The fires grew higher and higher!
They listened and as their Wings fluttered and spun together, they wove a new TUNE, and the MUSIC began to play!
3 Songbirds sounds had been put out, meaning , she would not listen to their calls or cries , sounds anymore, in the PAST!
1 remained, the one that counted, only HIM, just that One, the Sweetest Sounds ever produced by any Songbird, before ,or since into the past, the now and beyond. He was just all there was and is and more.
LOVE TURNED TO HATE, the 2nd moment: she LOST that piece of her heart and hers ripped out of him as well. Love was gone. Love was Lost. Love went into the Darkness and it grew!
Love did NOT disappear, it had changed force and form and feelings grew for the her Dark Prince. Her Songbirds’call, there would only ever by One , that would remain with her. Other’s had been laid to rest , as was all their musical sounds, notes and gifts. Elle was rejoiceful in her choices. She grew in HATE for those who dared to cross , not just her , but her children and her friends. She was very complicated. She felt them all cry out, as she settled them with their sounds and gifts out to sleep. Forever Sleep , she said: you and your music. It would take extraordinary forces to bring them back to her.
The dTHRC was a glitter and a glow. Heston flew in and called his student to him. She came willingly back into the fold and melted into the position , waiting for him to take flight with her. She settled deep within him. She was ready.
At last Dark Lord Heston thought, it had taken centuries to reach this point with her. She would be with him for the next 500 years at least , as his student. IF he managed to get her where he truly wanted her to be, then it would be 10,000 years! He would have to get her to ask him to join her in her Reign. Yes, what a wonderful prospect! He was more than delighted!
Yes, she was ready and her Darkened Bands , all of them began to glow and vibrate together.
Hate had come to Rosedrop World . It rose from within! How dare anyone hurt and betray love in such ways!
Ava Prime and Heston sat together in dTHRC and sat in silence. They looked over onto the mantle and Ava focused on the Inkwell and her mother’s Red Peacock Feathered Pen and she turned into him and asked?
Shall we?
They did !
The Inkwell began to work and the Red Feather Peacock Pen , flew up, dipped itself in the blood ink and began to write, you see it all started with the dip of” that pen”, into The Inkwell.
This particular chapter is dedicated to “Lost Horizon”
Novel by James Hilton, with the Mythical ” Shangri-La”.
My mother once told me , you create your own, so , I am. Dedicate to my own ” Lost Horizons”! The New Ones , I am creating.
There he stood , the lone Drud, he was the Lord High of the Druds. They are the tree worshipers and power of botanical life. They use the elements to keep the world “natural” . Their powers are harnessed from the essence of their cellular make up. The liquid and air and solid matter that make up the cells that allow them to grow. As the natural botanical world grows and develops , so , does their power. It is harnessed into new and old, also dark and light, growth and wasteland, held the balance or imbalance of power within them.
He came and caused the crash!
He came and maimed and killed! He was supposed to be an Air Radiator Healer in the Real World. He had special skills and insights to block and zap and obliterate ” air” diseases within a soul. Supposedly a Special Being, in truth, just another ” Killer”!
The plague had come and with their gifts of Starlight and Moon Essence, the Prime reversed the infection. She withdrew it out of their clan and they all lived. They lived simply , off the land with no grind or axe to “bear”. A lovely docile people , who never accepted strangers to their ways. You had to be born to them, called to them, or affiliated to them. You would always be able to see through their disguises, if, you knew or came across them. Our Prime and her2nd could always see them.
Our student , is still within the bedchamber of the Dark Lord Azar. He was back in his Draconus Dragonflairy form. He wanted her to awaken and change for him! His connections with her had always been intellectual ones through their 7th Eye connections. He had always wanted more. Hence the disguises and his sons and seeds to be with her , as he sent them out. He could then be with her in the ” physical” sense with these connections. He nearly lost her when Alagron was discovered and lost his head. He then lost his head again when this particular Disciple of Darkness , came to her rescue, and another Draconus head was lost.
He had wanted to watch her change for him. He loved the interludes within the Caves. Shame who she was with. He needed to steal that piece of her heart back for her and replace that particular part of her heart with his.
The Drud Lord High, came to “kill” to preserve, “his Clan”. They lived in secluded mountain villages within our Rosedrop World , far beyond into The Amythyst and White Mountain Ranges. They nestled in the foothills and valleys within them. They practiced both dark and light Drudgury Mageeck.
Why, the CRASH, to keep her worlds apart. To try to break her… recall the saying when Lord Beaumont said to her, I will see to it that one by one you loose everyone around you. That you are left alone . I will never pay you back! Because, I don’t have to! I am unreachable! I am so far beyond anything anyone of you could be like, I actually have my head up my own backside! Yeah…. we , remember , how he thought, he was so high and mighty and made his decrees. His voice was terrible He moaned and groaned and croaked out tunes now. He lived off his ” yesterdays” as, his talentless tomorrows carried on! What terrible , terrible things were being said and thought about her heart piece. She could feel it in her deep trance . It looked like she was sleeping. The Dark Draconus Dragonflairy looked into these thoughts and feelings that he had ” happened” upon ..and he knew how to !” Capture” her heart. He was going to use that old ” Bubble” trick !
The Bell tolled.
The Snow fell
Her Songbird had crashed. Blood was spilled. Bonds were broken, love and blood poured out of them both. Our Prime was ripped apart, like when an abdominal aortic aneurysm rips apart and dissects within you. Her pain was intense and it was at that precise moment , within the replay , the Dark Draconus Dragonflairy Lord- did just that, he ripped out her heart piece and Darkness Dug Deep , with his own within her and hers within his. He made the exchange , as blood was let out and love disintegrated with every beat of more broken promises. She had no choice, at her lowest ebb , it came, overpowered her and left her hearts obliterated , shattered threads of her heart strings were now being shredded. On a continuous runway, over and over, never being allowed to come together and heal, she was on this treadmill that lead to the depths of despair. Her Songbird let that happen and she was never quite sure why. She no longer had the strength to fight him. She gave up on him She had answered his Call, and he Let her GO! She was never quite sure why? She never understood , why he called for her in the first place. Did he really think , she wouldn’t answer him ? Try to find him. He was the only Songbird that would ever count for her. He was the Best for her. She had loved him completely. He had let her bleed out! She had no idea , why ?
She was taken , completely by surprise and when she would awake from this, she would have had another name change. Empress AVA Prime , was the other half of the Dark Draconus Dragonflairy. Darkness was part of her, as was her hate. She had learned to ” hate” them all and that was very good. You see it was only ” love” that kept her from acting out and that no longer existed.
The Druds cringed as they realized , their mistake. The Diablo7 surrounded our couple and made sure NO ONE interfered with them. Heston Draconus Dragonflairy Azar, settled himself down beside her and let his tongue feel the air above her. He had snake like qualities in his tongue and tasted the air surrounding her.
He had to see it! He pulled himself aside and with one of his long sharp claws, he cut her, deeply and watched her change!
He turned and acknowledged the Drud and watched him step down and out of his space. He went the way he came, he changed into a SNAKE, joined with his staff , he slithered off and up and out the high window that was opposite the Oasis within Lord Azar’s room .
There was a crash
There was a death.
There was a resurrection of being and hearts , darkened hearts were burned , bred and re-developed. AVA’s hearts had gone Dark. She breathed him in and rejoiced within herself , within him.
Heston felt it and thought to himself, ” at last”! with that , Ava Prime, awoke. She had opened another one of her bands. Prince Azar was so very very pleased. She had opened the first of her Darkened bands. Yes, he was very very pleased. He would ” heal” her pain. Let them all watch, as he overtook her and watch her ” bloom” into this new and powerful force. He had his plans.
Yes, he would need to pay them soon, to assure , no irreversibility. Heston owed the Druds.
Blood darkened heart blood tears, trickled down Ava’s face as she slept. She was being re-coated and re-branded. Fire within her started to bubble and sparkle within her. Her mind started to glow and Heston delved deeper into her and extracted more blood, sinew and knowledge. He continued to bind her to him. He was binding the mappings of her mind to him , as he simultaneously captured her hearts.
It was a dark and solitude night! The wind was a low whisper. The mist was high. You won’t see me. I know where you live “You won’t see me coming “,he said and gave her that look. The one in her “EYE” and smiled that slow and fearful smile. She said, ” it doesn’t matter” I will always ” SEE YOU”!
She had LEFT HIM! LIFE WENT ON! NO ONE WILL EVER DO “THAT” TO HER AGAIN! NO ONE! 🧚♀️🧚🧚♂️
The Storms raged on!
They fought.
As they had come together , it had broken in much the same way.
HAD IT She thought.
Sleep had eluded her.
She finally slept.
She awoke with her solution.
TIME TO LEAVE !
She awoke.
She wrote.
She went to work!
Her heart preserved ,despite ,24 hours ( that is 24 of their planetary hours) of being a target practice.
Cruel words and actions.
Words count.
They can lift you up and tear you down.
Happy face. Hearts. Angry Faces.
Controlling
Brutal
Emotional
IT WAS BLACKMAIL!
She had been there before?
No- NOT QUITE LIKE THIS!
She left him
SHE Left Him
SHE LEFT HIM!
YES, SHE DID!
He had blown her away and dissolved everything.
HOT
HEATED
TEMPETUOUS
She was not going to fall, like this again!
STOOD UP to STAND ALONE, Much much stronger and wiser for what was to come next.
Prince Heston Azar went down , then up ,to his bedroom floor. He kept it simple yet luxurious. He had plenty of room and kept it sparse. He had one of Elle’s works on his walls. She had done it for him , so many years ago. It captured a moment in time for him. She was so young, he was surprised she even knew about it.
Taking a bow to any string instrument is special and unique. He loved experimenting that way. Her painting was like that , it resonated the stars , stairs going upwards. The sprays were irregular and reminded him of tears and starlight together with the splanter of blood , on angel wings. The dark and the light together. What fun they had the day , she created this for him.
He had a lovely palm tree , with a small pool for relaxing. It was like an indoor oasis . He went and placed his hand on the trunk and then pushed his hand inside it , as he revealed the secret compartment , and there from that trunk, he pulled out the old deer skin, leather bound Diary that belonged to the Ancient World of Ellarya Prime, of them all. It was their story, all of them, and how they were all combined and together. Those that loved truly, were not ever to be apart. They would always find each other in the next life. Elle was lucky her Starlights had found her ! They were all together again.
Heston sat on the edge of his grand bed. He opened and looked at the blank pages. He put the palm of his strumming hand on it and tapped out the required rhythm. He felt the surge and closed the book.
Heston moved and laid down on this bed. He waved the curtains closed. The starlight within his room was dimmed. He nestled in under the covers. He went into trance to receive and ” read” , what had been transferred.
He was flying to the depths of her spiritual home, the base and source of many with gifts and powers. He was flung into the depths of her mountain from which she came. He saw her there in the heart of her mountain home and there surrounding her , he saw her Songbird’s wings around her. Surrounding them was her “clan” . Her people from which she came. Towering over her were her mother and grandmother: the spirits of Mahaji and Dhanya, never far.
He looked and saw a small glow, it came and floated and grew strong. All the hands came out to greet and collect the glow, the spirit of someone close to Ellarya had passed. She was sad. He had to go back to her. The clan rejoiced at the life that was in both their worlds and the Spirit soared. The mountain home called her forth.She joined the Spirit World within the heart of their mountain.
It was time, for Heston to bring them all home, which he did. He brought her home with him. Their Songbird floated back as well and up and out. Heston awoke.
He came back into his room. He got up and put the diary back, within its safe-haven. He held her secrets. He knew her strengths, her weaknesses and he held them close to his own hearts. So , hard to mentor this determined Primling. She was his student always. He still had much to teach her.
He was surprised to see her Songbird’s wings within her beating hearts.He also saw that simple small black spec and one small dark purple one, that belonged to just him. He was there to teach and secure her knowledge within his dark mentorship , which would always bind them together. Her heart strings were tied and blood bound.
He remembered the trial that placed him there. Yes, the diary revealed much! Next steps was to conjure up her Primal Star Elixir, the healing drink , that prevents her from bleeding out and rejuvenates inner soul vibrations.
Prince Heston Azar smiled. He had found what he wanted. He had found and felt her hearts and source of her strength.
Sadly, during that trance, someone had passed over. Always a privilege to see such an event. He had to find out who it was and what happened.
As, he placed the diary back into its secret place, he turned and saw Ellayra sitting in his small pool. She had curled up and was also in trance. He slipped in beside her and got pulled down into her “bubble world. She had successfully, crossed her worlds over , into this new presence of darkness , with Prince Heston Azar.
They went back to the trials , that brought them together.
This was the way, Elle got spoken too , by Araswati Kurgha.
Elle was helping her, own time, own money! It was a full-time job in its own right. Demanding, unappreciative, assuming that it would go on indefinitely. Not ever saying ” thank you” , by treating her well and speaking to her with respect and appreciation. Nooooo. Elle got abuse, after abuse after abuse from that Kurgha.
No one kept their word.
No one paid her back!
On and on it carried on !
Every ” dog” has its day!
Just “YOU” wait.
Elle left in tears , everytime! Her efforts always shot down with some sort of personnel afront , attack: look how you are sitting, look how you are chewing, you have to use the bathroom again? You are walking too loudly, stomping around like an elephant. ……
You need to come on Saturday , early evening , to help me with my Daily Living Needs. I can’t do it by myself.
Drag her out ! Away from her own family , friends , taking up her weekends !
Ohh , just sit with me! I had a wash before you came ! So, while you are here now spend the evening with me! Wrecking every weekend with some kind of emergency, garbage, all of it! Same as ” kicking off , every Friday”! Just the same but worse. This was her” friend”, her “Prime” , doing this to her!. The worst kind of abuse was dished out to Elle, worse than any man in her life, ever: before or since.
This really trumped them all.
Green Eyes, well that one, trumped them all.EYES were NOT Green at all. They were aquamarine , with Gold and Purple Flecks. all her companions, never mind, his hands were “gifted”, very special.
Always cried and carried on about what happened to her ? The Victim had become the perpetrator. If it was thought that what was done to Elle was any less horrific they were all wrong. It was prolonged , sustained and collectively perpetrated.
How ?
Why?
She did not understand anymore!
Being full on job, mother and she had her friends all of them to keep happy also , she was tired! Just sat, listened and literally put through the worst times ! Forced listening to complete and utter rubbish that was NOT produced by her friends!
Crap !
Crap !
And more Crap!
Please go get me some crispy, salty, fried anything with loads of ICE CREAM Shakes. You need to go, I don’t care that it is midnight. I don’t care that is is 2 am.
I want .
I want .
I want it now.
Stomp of the feet.
Stomp of the feet.
Stomping of feet !
Stupid Witch !
Friggin , FRACKING , Elle figured she was , at this rate , idiot primal witch!
A promise is a promise ! If you don’t keep your word , you could loose them all, not just one but all! She wouldn’t risk it! She helped until she was sure they were all safe and well, including that OLD WITCH!
Smash of a glass. For loss of a simple candle light. She had been taken out on a special “shopping trip”. Taking time away from family and children.
She didn’t have any. Couldn’t didn’t care about anything past her own god damn nose.
Stopped taking care of herself. Putting immense pressure on the one who care for her for all the others.
OOooo, do come and eat with me. You aren’t going to let me eat all by myself.
That’s nice what you are wearing. Take it off and give it to me. It will look better on me. I can’t go out. This was my mother’s. I am only going to ” borrow it! She took the sparkly blue scarf and refused to give it back, when it was recalled. She was told, if ever ,we part company this must be returned. Of course the old frump kept it. She was mean like that.
A Liar.
A Cheat .
A Thief.
She was the all the wicked witches put together. She was of course the Durgha Prime, Araswati. Her victim and “slave” was Ellarya. PURE JEALOUSY, was the bottom line!
Misery loves company.
Ellarya worked herself into the ground , doing all that was asked for Stefano,for Giovanni, for Parian with Tristan , for the Celestial 7.
She grew and grew.! One day she thought, just look at what that old Cow did to me. Elle looked at herself in the powder room crystilline, silver mirror, she looked like a slug! She had two spare tires and her babies hormones was not the only cause. She had lost Parian’s twins. HE would not speak to her , unless it was to pull her to him, he could cast his spell and she would be exactly how he wanted her to be. Parian and Tristan were one!
Drop the dead weight around you.
How?
She could not.
She had to keep her word. She did! Her home went. Her profession almost went. Lost her two last babies , until Tristan , found a way to bring them back. She was really pissed with Tristan. All time idiot , he was. She looked at him sometimes , when ,she looked back at this moment , when she reflected and realized… I JUST DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! Any of you! Mostly true!
She was fat .She was NOT that , that stupid. She finally had to admit to herself, the truth. Her best friends, all of them , had betrayed her and all of her children. She didn’t get angry. She was just very, very sad about them all!
She was not miserable. Elle always found away to be “happy” !
She remembered her mother’s teaching. There was one way to be released. Two things had to happen!
Fat friends, like misery like company. Elle didn’t care. NO matter her size, she always looked good. She looked inviting , kind and her partner (s ) always found her and that really just pissed off everyone , who knew Elle in her “Prime”! What they had not realized , was that Elle, had yet to reach her Prime. She was still developing. Araswati was deliberate sabotage to Elle for Stefano. Giovanni watched , because that was the voyeur , in him. Tristan with Parian, always found a way to be the centre of attention, or be there with the centre of attention at the time, craved it, he sure bloody did! Elle laughed at some of his antics. He sure was funny at times.
How could they betray her so ?
Ha! Elle thought! She thought and thought and thought.
OF course it happened. She asked her Mother , to intervene and make it happen. Elle also asked her ancients, starting with her grandma! She knew they would NOT let her down.
The Spirits did , what was asked. Love transcended the boundaries of earth worlds and beyond to do this for Ellarya , their loved and cherished child.
Araswati said the unthinkable: “I DO NOT LOVE ,STEFANO”, and once more she said it as Elle was crossing into her dwelling, THRC with a hidden weapon, a sharp sword behind her! She had broken the promise, the spell. The bonds and ties had been cut. YOU never, ever, greet someone with a sharp weapon , as they cross the threshold , from the world , into your dwelling. It cuts the love and friendship. Ellarya felt it all “flutter” away from her. The bonds, the ties, fluttered down into the earth from which they came. They reached the flutterlanes as they touched the forces that held those bonds, they dissipated and disappeared to become of the past, not the present anymore, releasing and allowing a new future of possibility to take hold for Ellarya Prime.
Ellarya, felt a surge within her, her own gifts and being , and power that Araswati had been masking, were released. She had been bound by Araswati. She was released from those bindings ARAWASTI had broken all their ties. Ellarya was now completely and totally , PRIME! We have said this before, but this was now at a new level. Ellarya would come to learn all of this in time. Dhanya had told her about this, her learning and how each year it would develop and grow.
Ellarya felt it, that surge., knowing in time she would learn the nature of.
Stefano cried out! Ellarya heard him.
Ellarya was released. She never had to return to that fat , selfish , horrible WITCH! Let her rot in her own stew. Let her clean up her own vomit and mess ! Let her sit in her own stinking smoke infested hole. Let THRC be overrun with rats, spiders, beetles and the horrid creatures that can keep her company. Let the dark smoke infiltrate. With that, the false facade of what Elle, had seen within THRC, was broken and she saw the place dilapidated and cracked and broken , the roots that came through the wall. The worn upholstery , that was thin bare and worn. Stuffing missing from the furniture. The hearth, fallen in places and broken and functional. She saw the witch as she was harsh and cruel , filled with HATE .She had ,had for life and blamed everyone, for what had happened to her. IT was in fact one of the saddest moments of Ellarya’s life. Despite all that she had been put through, Ellarya had her ” humanity” and still felt for this pathetic shell of a being in front of her. She had truly loved her and it just melted away. Araswati had flown ,elsewhere and betrayed Stefano, Ellarya , their world! All that she had taken care of and given up for the love of Stefano. No wonder their Moms were so worried about him Just look at what , he had tied himself too. Love knows no boundaries she thought. We love who we love. Let it all just be. His choice. She hoped he would be happy, eventually.She hoped somehow , they would sort it all out and be happy someway, together. Regardless, She knew Stefano would be more than “OK”! Ellarya had assured that herself!
HE WAS!
Before she left, Ellarya, looked at Araswati and said to her, Good Bye, Be Well, take care of yourself. Let Steve know, I will be in touch with him soon. She smiled , her smiled and went out immediately to Lord Admiral Stefano’s place.
He was waiting for her. I am sorry , my Muffin, was all he said, as he took her into his open arms , once again.
Elle smiled. Stefano was always her best friend. She stood by him , as best friends do.
She didn’t care about , all the horrible, disgusting things Araswati , put her through for him. She would do it all again for him. She knew, she felt it.
Fat friends, get even, she made her fat too. Took everything away.. or so , she thought. She couldn’t.Be wary of someone with falseness , it will , show through, eventually. Ellarya had listened to all her Dhanya & Mahaghi had taught her. She protected herself and her children, as , she had been shown, everytime she crossed , that particular threshold…..”JUST IN CASE!” Thank the heavens, she listened and followed those most ancient of protection that belonged to her through her Ancients.
Stefano would always love his Muffin.
Giovanni had a piece of her heart. Stolen , but his all the same.
Stefano ,he had given Elle a piece of his. heart. Ellarya would never take one step against him, ever! Everyone should have known this from the start. He did! He always did!
Tristan, just, would “rock ” up or send Parian. She was well pissed with them both. Go on she thought, get out there and be on the Road, that long, long every lasting , non- ending Road. Hit it and stay there , she thought! What a man!, the pair of them.
Ellarya never saw the Durgha again!
Getting even- had not even started !
She licked her lips. She spread her wings. She flipped from horned self , to Poison Avy , back to herself.
She looked into the Silver Celestial bowl and saw what she had become. I am going to fix this.
She decided , she had taken the worst that Araswati had to offer her , this was her form of friendship. Ellarya decided better. She left Ary,now known as her true self ” ARA” with everything , including her guys. ARA C/ ARA D /ARYC , part of the Celestial and Diablo 7! Ara would always be OK. She flitted from side to side. She tottered that balance beam and with her emotions, could cause a storm , a natural catastrophe, such was her power. It was gone , for now. Whether that was her intention, part of her role to put Elle through all of this and then release her in the cruelest of ways? Elle was never sure. She held onto a degree of hope that it was not a complete , betrayal and all part of a larger plan. Time and future events sometimes have to be revealed , retrospectively , she learned. It was all part of the achieving and fulfilling process, and it bloody well hurt. Blood was spilled, over and over, Elle’s blood. ARA had passed it all to Ellarya in that one swift motion: her actions and words combined. Ellarya had a direct path to the Celestial beings, it was part of being a feminine being & essence and PRIMAL.
Let them be.
Let it just be.
Let all the music , play on.
So , it did!
Stefano was back at work.
Elle had done her duty by him. Her promise kept. Her best friend was happy and back at work. She was so very proud of him. He looked just great.
Was it worth it all ?
Of course it was!
AND , Ellarya, picked herself up from her powder room , went out on one her drake. Came back to be Mom and took care of them all, all but Araswati. She never saw her again by choice. She really did leave her. Let them all take care of her the way , I did , she thought. They can’t even ,with all of them together , they couldn’t. And that is how she left them. Together , well, happy and to take care of the Dhurga , themselves.
Elle concentrated on her children,her drakes,and being the best PRIME in her own right. She had earned it!
Giovanni called! Get on with it! You need to sort out the GHS! I am watching you. What else was new! He had been watching her , since their school days. Like that, was ever going to stop. Man, he , really was just difficult at times!
“ALL RIGHT”! Elle, shouted back at him, coming out of his powder room. She did take a very long time , in there. She looked into the Celstial Silver Bowl and remembered it all! She had brushed away the tears, with the memories of the viciousness and harshness ,with which, she was treated. She cringed , shook, stifling the PTSD symptoms with the associated memories. For the longest time, she could not talk to anyone, on a personnel level. She isolated herself. She got herself into a better way of living. She had lost her concentration to read long prose or literature. She started small with word puzzles , the ones she used to due with her Mum. She got some real puzzles and played with her children. She cooked and helped them to learn to cook. She sorted through all the clutter of all the homes! She got a good job with a a back to work programme with support and mentorship.She just worked and worked. THAT ,She could do.
Clear space. Clear mind. Positive Energy and thoughts and actions. She did indeed DROP , the Dead Weight around her and herself.
Giovanni, sat there looking at her! Just what have you been up to in there ? I thought, I was going to come and drag you out! Really Elle, don’t keep me waiting like that again. You better NOT be thinking of anyone but me!
Promise me, he said! You love me the most don’t you? Ellarya looked at him , smiled and said, ” of course” , I do, as she crossed her horned tail with his scorpion one!
Getting even , nah, leave that to the sad and pathetic, the Durgha’s flame went out for Ellarya. Love of friendship with her was truly lost. Not ever to be rekindled , or trusted again.
Ellarya had defeated , all the odds and got back to work at her own and new GHS! Gio was right!
OF Course, HE was always bloody right!
She missed him when he was gone! Got over him! Time would tell!? She did! Life moved on beyond them all!
Frumpy Fat Friend , getting even!
Nice try!
Ellarya was steel and coldly, determined.
She would not ever let them know, how badly, they had hurt her. How sad she was , how badly, they all sat back and watched ,as Araswati mistreated her.
Gold Eyes with Purple flecks , background of Aquamarine , let her down. She could not bare , that horrible Saturday. IT all ended that day with him. Elle got very sick. She managed to find her balance . She got up. She left him behind ,her hearts shattered. Life moved on! She mustered the strength, to stop the bleeding, to mend her hearts. She got up and she got back to work.
Her hearts had been shattered, as they shattered and broke and splintered the bands that contained the PAIN of the Degeneate and the Filth were opened and released into her. She had met and succumbed and assimilated all the requirements of her Primeship! No one tells you that , the last step is complete and utter despair. You are placed between life and death and passing into the West. You have a choice to release the pain and go into the West, let the Ancients come and take you. You sail away and continue your Journey, waiting , for the Wheel of LIfe, in the Heavenly Skies ,to bring you back once again. She was going over, into the West. Elle had finally succumbed, those AQUAMARINE EYES, with the “gifted and special hands” , succeeded where every one else had failed. Dhanya had warned her about those those Gold and Purple flecked Eyes. She didn’t really get it. Ellarya did not expect that from him. She fell and bleed. She was going to bleed out, her hearts having been completely and finally crushed and shattered, by the power that held her hearts , in those precious hands.
Elle crashed.
She had crashed into a new and bright light, a shining Starlight. The Starlight surrounded her, picked her up! The Starlight was hers. It was her Starlight. She healed and got up. She would , now, attached to this inner glow, would NOT ever let it go! The Starlight healed her and she found a new level of being and raised herself up with the pain and being and understanding she was and is a PRIMAL FORCE ! She had joined into the next level of Primeship: renewed, refreshed and whole.
Shattered hearts had stopped bleeding. Starlight healing.
It was Elle’s and Yra’s children, who finally made her see and she devoted herself to them all. The little draklings and the older drakes saw it too. The Jesters danced. The Diablo 7 rang its bell. The Unicorns came and raised the roof. They came in a stampede to protect Ellarya. Their horns glowed , they bowed and charged. They let their glow, their force surround her ! They found her Starlight ! She was going to crash into that Starlight and that Starlight was going to shine within her ! The Universe was NOT going to let Ellarya Prime go just yet. She still had work to do!
Elle knew there was the next battle to fight, getting even, turned out to be the best thing that happened to her! She found that inner strength , she never knew she had.
HER Starlight had found its home, Ellarya Prime, cherished child with Starpower, gifts, Moonlight and Starlight. Her blood glowed with her Starlight.
The Kurgha got her wish, Dr.Ellarya Sierra Brandyn, doctorate certified Herebral Alchemist & feminine PRIME , never looked at her with her face again!
Yes, they barred her , but they could not hold her down or back. She left and told them all to ” SHOVE IT” ! Go on keep it!
They did!
They watched her fall, and fall, and fall.
SPLAT.
Darkness.
Nothingness.
Emptiness.
Despair.
I don’t need to get up.
NO one will miss me , when , I am gone.
NO one will care.
I am gonna stay curled up in a ball and never get up……..
MOM, Oh MOM …. we are hungry! The drakes are here! We need to feed them and we are all out of their Special Food.
Can , I go to Aunties’ and get some and see how our sisters are doing.? We decided to make breakfast ourselves.
Ohh…..NOooooooo! She thought, Scrounged up in her duvet, actually it was Giovanni’s how did she end up in his room, yet again. Oh yeah!
Never mind that now, she swung her legs up and decided that the disaster kitchen of kids getting their own breakfast would not happen today. She rushed down and whipped up breakfast… Nope you are all having some special tea and toast with Bloomberry Red Devil Jam , their favorite. The tea was sweet like Chai and a special natural blend and creamy with soya milk. The red jam was a nickname for strawberry jam with a dash of black pepper. That was all! But they loved it and full cream butter made out ordinary cow’s milk. ( there are something’s that are just as good as they are, so leave them that way , ha ha )
She rushed them off to Yra’s! Giovanni emerged. She hadn’t realized he was still around. Before she could say anything, he grabbed her by her hand and said , sit down. She looked at him, you mean at the kitchen table. NO, my office, come on we have work to do! She smiled at him. NO, I mean work!
Ellarya , did not really know what was wrong with her. She couldn’t be pregnant again! She had all the babies that were predicted. Giovanni said, we have to get your GHS back! What are you going to do about those bigots ? The ones who don’t know their asses from their elbows, think , they know it all because they are connected and are going to bully you out of what is yours! Are you going to let them.
Ellarya said , YES!
Giovanni slammed his hand down and changed. His horns came out, Elle just starred at him, he was her mirror image exactly! How ? She asked him ? “i didn’t know “! He looked at her and said, “I stole a piece of your heart. How didn’t you know “? HE stopped and sat down changed back and cried! “You don’t really love him more than me , do you “?
Gosh, Elle , looked at him balling his eyes out! “What is it Gio, tell me”? He didn’t tell her. He stood up and said, “ Well you just bloody well think of a way to fix this! I won’t have it , you understand me! NOT one bit! You find a way to fight this! Don’t you think for one second, I am not going to watch your every move in this.
You remember your ties to me remain always, the unbreakable strand will always connect you to me. I have stolen a piece of your heart. You can never have it back. Never”!! !
“I am going to see our daughters, over at Yra’s ! Gosh all the kids are playing and the drakes. Do you know she still has all the little unicorns and both the dark and light ones are there . They aren’t leaving or separating they are as if they are part of the same origins, they are just playing side by side and they don’t know they are NOT supposed to be playing together. If only, it would stay that way when they grew up”.
“You better get over to Yra’s for dinner. She told me to tell you, its your turn to make dinner for everyone. The Great Drakes are coming to help take care of the draklings and baby sit for awhile. All the older siblings , have gone on strike. I sent them all to be with their cousins in the real world. So, just you , me Yra and all the little ones.
Come on hurry up and you better think of something, or it’s back to the Butterflairy trunk for you! And i won’t let you out”!
“One more thing, if YOU EVER see that GUY with the those AQUAMARINE EYES again, you will go into the VOID. No one will be able to find you”.
Yes, Ellarya’s life was a mess! She had kids galore. She had her best friends to take care of; She had no practice, no money and no means. Yet, she found a way to be happy and cook and do all that Gio expected of her. After all, he was still her best friend from school,sometimes she just saw him that way!
Damn it , she thought. She really had forgiven him. It was the only way it was possible to go forward. She would not bare it , if anything actually happened to him. Because , your childhood best friend will always be your best friend .
This chapter is dedicated to my best friends, from Grade 6, Lower School. They all know who they are. All our courtesy cousins, my aunt and uncle and to the next generation of children. I love you all! RIP, the ones who have already passed over. Not forgotten. Say ” hi ” to our Moms. Love to our Dads. All the good times we shared. For all the ones yet to come.
Ellarya Sierra Prime decided the time had come to let them all go, into the past.
She broke those bonds.
She found the way.
Very Simply – all she had to say is ” I DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE!!
All the ties were broken.
She looked at Steve and said, I will NOT ever play your beautiful music again, UNLESS , you come and make this right. She finally faced the fact: her very best friend , had let her down. He didn’t deserve her love anymore. She remembered being held down. She remembered being hit and beaten and spit and stomped on, demanding that she let go of her love for him. She refused. She never thought there would be a day , she just didn’t love him anymore. IT wasn’t that! Her love for him changed. She walked away. She let him go. LET him be free and happy and let him be bound to Araswati into the Forever. Let them be bound to spend of their days and time together. Let him be her keeper and do it all himself! Let him do all the jobs , Elle did for him, for her , himself. She remembered the daily jibes, the cruelty and how they all watched. She let go of hate. She let love in for herself!
Elle had faith and belief in herself. When the Universe and the degenerate and the fallout, came. She withstood it all and found her way. She understood, she was PRIMAL and SHE WAS PRIME, cherished child with star power and moonbeam essence flowing with in her. Why didn’t he tell her the truth ? Perhaps , he did ! It was many many moons before. She needed to reach deep to remember. Let him go. It was for the best. He didn’t care what she went through to say to him: ” I love you” ! Not , anymore.
Tristan was best , they went their separate ways. She never saw his blows coming. She stopped loving him that day. Best leave him be, he takes drastic steps and falls so low. She would not see him, anything but , the most he could be, it wasn’t love, it was just being a ” friend”! He had not broken her heart. He shattered it. Her hearts were splintered ! She had to find the way to piece and knit them back together. The silver and gold flecks congealed and blocked her leakage. The waves went out and they heard her silent cries in volumes: just keep him safe and “happy”! I can’t help him anymore! Those blows by Tristan were the worst. They beat the black eye. They beat the bruised and nearly broken wing. They beat the hot , so very hot water that was thrown on her , that stung her eyes , her chest , her breast, her arm, her leg. It beat being forced! He trumped them all! She never saw any of it , coming from him!
Giovanni, had all he wanted. He had everything he ever dreamed of and more. Elle looked into his blue eyes and remembered all their lives . She saw him as she always saw him. She remembered, that first time they passed over together and the promises they made. She remembered , the good lives and the bad ones. She recognized the bad ones now outweighed the good. IT was time. She snapped the last fibres of the threads of their bonds into the past, the present . A grain into the future , remained intact, she couldn’t break free fully. The small speck in the blue of his eyes, remained embedded in a corner of hers. That was there, Just in case. They would have to face each other one , last time, to be free of each other and say simultaneously – I just don’t love you anymore.
Does that actually , come about ?
Of Course it does! Ellarya was going to look him square in those blue eyes of his and say , they aren’t green. I just don’t love you anymore!
She left them behind and delved into the year ahead , into the Unknown!
Today, is dedicated to my Mum and Dad , married 66 years ago today. Miss you Mum, everyday.
A Cherished friend , who helped me start this day , of memories both happy and sad , by sending me a ” SMILE” , love and support , in words.
Ellarta had just left Giovanni’s quarters, dressed and camouflaged in her own clothes and skin. She flitted out the escape door and started down the long ancient path to Ekuziel’s habitat. She had to remain low and out of site. The Pahn had spies and she had escaped him. The pathway was fixed with small little stones, rocks, pebbles, crystals and wood chips. They intermingled. The Rocks roared as she floated, flitted, walked , ran, skipped past. She gazed among the tall grasses : some green , some blue, some purple. The flowers leered at her , some inviting , some hostile, more amused and intrigued at the new adventures of this enchantress , Empress that she was .
This being the first step of the 7 tests, she would have to endure to reach Ekuziel and become joined to him. She didn’t know what they were or what it was , that imminently ,she had to face. She heard that same old humming. She froze with terror of remembrance of this particular sound: the humming and chanting of the snakelets. She had almost lost her way that day with Alagron and Guilio. She tried to fly and felt the same heaviness once again.This time she didn’t fight it. She joined and hummed and chanted with them as they arrived. They searched and searched for her the Snakelets but could not find her. Ellarya had blended in with the sound cloaking her own being. She chanted and hummed and saw them arrive.
The Fire Ants.
They flew and spat flames, little droplets of fire that burned and pebbled dashed the ground. They spat and planted themselves and started the search for Elle. Ellarya hummed. She chanted and she swarmed ,with the snakelets.
The rocks were quiet as she passed. Silenced by her sting. She had adopted Giovanni’s scorpio appendageal tail ,so she could release venom if needed. The crystals felt her and shone, so ,only she could see their light and light the way for her .The Fire Ants tried to throw her off the trail ,into the multitude of traps.
She had to pass the snakelet pit without being attracted to join them. She looked in and saw Giovanni, he was writhing and riding the snakelets, whispering to her to come down and join him. She watched as the rocks dribbled into the pit. Trickling down into the moving bottom . It slithered and swirmed hissed. The were an orgy of activity amongst themselves. Some were engaging in the act , some were being eaten , some were squeezing , some were biting , hissing and some were just humming along.
A snakepit of images . They writhed and rolled. The moved in waves, some fst , some slow. Some allowed themselves to be devoured , only to be reborn and come out with multiple heads, like a hydra
. The stream of rocks was slow then it became heavier and thicker and faster and Giovanni rose to the heights with them and soared . He laughed and showed himself , his strengths , his weaknesses and revealed all to her., he was being crushed , alive. He had lost his voice and his ability to sing had been stifled.
SNAP, the mirage of Giovanni vanished. The pit had not been able to entice her down and trap her. Giovanni was in his quarters at The Pahn’s Palace and he was on his bed, missing his wife. He had laid his head on her pillow and fell asleep. He went to her in his dreams and watched her pass the test by leaving him destitute and a prisoner within a snakelet pit. He whimpered in his sleep for her. She cried out for him to hush and rest. She soothed adn comforted him in his sleep. She assured him , his voice was fine. He was secure. She would never let anyone hurt him. She gave him that much ! She would always stand up for him. She would say, YOU GO THROUGH ME FIRST! I will be his shield. She was , until , the day came that her shield would passed through him , destined for another. For now , she let him know , she would be home to him soon.
Ellarya ignored the snakelet pit and she clug to her small little leather bag with its endless hidden delights. She felt Giovanni turn in his sleep. She reached out to him and touched his cheek. He felt the shimmer of a feather-lite touch of her . He tried to wake up to grab her and could not. He was held in trance. She would never know , if he missed her. She assumed , he just didn’t care once , he lost her control and all that came with it. He had wanted her power. He wanted to usurp her position, he almost succeeded. She had loved him beyond time. Time hesitated and he lost her!
Ellarya passed the snakelet pit and kept on chanting and humming. She was eased up the path , passing the stones, the rocks, the pebbles, the crystals , the wood chips. Between the stones , the rocks , the pebbles , the crystals and the wood chips , the roots of the very deep and surrounding woods started to come up the ground and twist and turn. The deep roots travelled and snaked up and along the path. Ellarya decided it was time to flutter. She hovered above and watched as they started to grow upwards to try to reach out and handcuff her. As she dodged and turned, she remembered Alagron and Guilio and how he had wanted to handcuff her. The only one to handcuff her was Giovanni. He jolted with sensation of the memory ,in trance and sent waves of not devotion or love but of possession to devour and conquer and keep always what he simply thought was just “his”! Elle decided he was right and let loose the the venom from the scorpio tail she had adopted and adjusted for this flight this night. She was enraptured and captured in the dark waves of the Green vines and wood root that tried to grab her. The roots sprouted green little delicacies to try and entice her to turn and join them. They wanted to bring out the Poisonous Avy side of her. They didn’t realize she was already there ,as she sprayed them and made sure she ventured forward to the next stage of the first path.
They came fast and quick the FIRE ANTS and they flew through the winding vines that shot out and tried to hold and bind her. The Fire Ants came in swarms of a bands that kicked off , as they ran over only the rocks. Over and over the Fire Ants and the rocks combined. They spat out and hissed and broke the chanting. They were blocking the sound waves. They were testing the wave barriers to see if there was anything hiding behind. Ellarya sank and went back . She went to the snakelet pit and hovered until she pulled in Giovanni’s mirage and there in the snakelet pit, she let the Fire Ants discover them. They found her with him being entangled and swarmed by the snakelets.The humming and chanting heightened and beat as Elle exposed the mirage of Giovanni and watched as the Fire Ants tried to sting him with the touch of their Fire Wings and feet. She let them see her protect him. She placed him in a protective seal made from the snakelet shed skin droppings.
She refashioned him in the case and left the mirage of him there, under what seemed to be clear stone. The mirage was just that. Giovanni was safe and sound and oblivious to the mirage’s activities. Ellarya , then ,went after Giovanni’s shadow next.
Two adversities had not been avoided by Ellarya . The snakelet pit, she escaped twice. Giovanni was safe. He was Happy in his dreamscape world with her. They were happy together and chased one another. They played in the Butterflairy tree and were more than best friends and lovers. Ellarya went on.
The last part of this first test was filled with thickening of the wood vines into filtered levels of up and down around the stones that become quite large boulders , the rocks that remained dark and sinister with undertones of darkness. Waves of bad feelings and sometimes darted to hex and jinx any passer-by ,if they got caught. The vines of different levels created veiled curtains and shadows. They were the balance of passing under and through the Veil. Ellarya could hear the sounds of those ,on the other side. She could not touch them. She could not see them. She could hear them calling her. She heard Alagron’s scream. She felt Giovanni rush to her side. They both watched the Drake plunge into the darkened waters. The Veil was playing tricks on Elle’s mind. Trying to draw her in. It played so many of Giovanni’s tricks on her . With Giovanni ‘s shadow , it was making Elle re-live some her most painful memories with him . Her deep seeded love for him, stood the test. The power of love and obsession, that seemingly gives someone that type of control over another soul. Some would say it is loyalty. Others would say , it is abusive control.
Giovanni didn’t realize. He didn’t have any power at all. Love and hate were the tools of power. Ellarya could be ” controlled ” by Giovanni because of ” love” . For Giovanni, Elle was never quite sure if he just hated her for ARYN, the he / she that was his most beloved secret ,”Crush”. She remembered, how hurt she was for him when she heart Araswati say, how much she actually hated him. He was the Dark Lord and he would attempt to take her life for power. Elle looked back many years later and would laugh at the thought, what would he say, if he knew that this “CRUSH” , he had , well and truly : hated him. Yes, they would have battles , they would hate. Elle would always want Giovanni to win. He afterall was a Dark Lord and she was part of its shadow too.
Ellarya went on and the Darkness of the Wooded Vines continued to call her. She had Giovanni ‘s aura, his “mirage” ,encapsulated. He was protected. He was safe. Elle came out of the Veiled Wooded Vines and found some sunlight and sunflowers. She stopped and rested under them. She had made it through to the next phase of tests. She had outsmarted the Snaklets and the Fire Ants..
Ellarya was one step closer to Ekuziel; one down, 6 to go!
Ellarya, let Giovanni wake up and eat, drink, engage, bath. He then had a day of frivolity, in one of his ” secret ” hidden chambers of the Pahn’s lower levels ,within the palace. Giovanni returned his quarters and once again ,missed his wife. He put his head on her pillow . Ellarya came to him in their combined 7th eye and sited to him, on this day so many moons ago, in a different time, in a different place, a leader took from Giovanni, his heart’s desire Elle stood back and watched as he stood up in the spot light , sang his songs and tears streamed down his face. She reached out to him and dried them .She stood behind him and hugged his heart. She held him and kept him from passing through and under the veil. The Vines had tried to take him. Ellarya would not let that happen. She stood by him and watched as he re-joined and settled in their room , in his quarters. She joined him there for a brief minute , then left him again.
She woke up and was in sunlight and sitting curled up on the head of a sunflower bed being shaded by another. Mother Sunshine and smiled down on her. The first stage to Ekuziel had been conquered.
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