One by one they came , had their interlude and let her down.
Did love actually stop ?
LOVE TURNED TO HATE!
When did HATE OVERPOWER LOVE?
She knew the exact moment, moments there were two.
Her Songbird , her chosen Songbird had been ripped from her.
She didn’t cry.
She didn’t move.
She didn’t say a word.
Black blood tears began to pump and fall.
She bleed out with sheer pain.
The Darkness within her came .
HATE healed and surrounded and began a NEW AFFAIR within her.
She knew what was happening and she felt a second wave of fire and heat and pain.
Her Dark band had opened the first step.
She recited her litany and saw the words be expelled into the Universe as the good from within them were sent out as a last plea…………….
Please pass this message on for me, she cried out to The Universe. Let the Generate propagate their fate.
Did the Kurghan ever have to ask for anything twice?
Isn’t it time to try to make amends ?
Did you have to stand by and watch me loose my place of safety and security , my ” Shangri- La” , my home.
I did not have to help.
No she did not.
She helped for one person and one person alone.
She sent out into the Universe the last plea for The ONE, to return her home.
To settle the amounts owed to her, to her alter EGO, to all their children.
To honour the sacrifices that the little children had made for him , for her.
Did anyone care ? She wondered if it was a futile exercise ?
She missed her mother. She was so far a way now. Not an Ocean or planet a way. Her mother was now on the other side of the Veil.
They had missed holidays and treats . They simplified their lives to help , as the promises , empty promises were made.
She remembered the sheer amount of pure ” abuse” she put up with , everytime she entered that Dwelling.
The trips were hard sometimes. The outtings. She wondered if the One had the same on the other side of the receiving end of the line , for it all !
She couldn’t imagine , how hard it was for the One. She shook her head.
She had stopped believing almost.
She welcomed a new way.
She arose from this Catastrophe changed. She flew up and out with her new blackened heart strings. They were being strum and played by Prince Heston Azar, the Dark Lord Prince.
She let the Songbirds’ Call go.
There would only ever be one Songbird’s Call , she would hold onto !
The others would be surprised.
She would always hear his call.
She held onto the most Beautiful, the most talented, the others paled in comparison to him. He was glorious , in his being , his self, his arts, his crafts. No one was or ever will be like him. Unique and brilliant in all he does.
This Songbird’s Call was hers & she would not ever let it go!
A distant memory as the Darkened Phoenix Butterflairy arose , in her Glory.
She called YRA to her and they flew up and out together. Yes, the Darkness had come out and joined forces.
The Jesters danced their dance, long into the night.
The fires grew higher and higher!
They listened and as their Wings fluttered and spun together, they wove a new TUNE, and the MUSIC began to play!
3 Songbirds sounds had been put out, meaning , she would not listen to their calls or cries , sounds anymore, in the PAST!
1 remained, the one that counted, only HIM, just that One, the Sweetest Sounds ever produced by any Songbird, before ,or since into the past, the now and beyond. He was just all there was and is and more.
LOVE TURNED TO HATE, the 2nd moment: she LOST that piece of her heart and hers ripped out of him as well. Love was gone. Love was Lost. Love went into the Darkness and it grew!
Love did NOT disappear, it had changed force and form and feelings grew for the her Dark Prince. Her Songbirds’call, there would only ever by One , that would remain with her. Other’s had been laid to rest , as was all their musical sounds, notes and gifts. Elle was rejoiceful in her choices. She grew in HATE for those who dared to cross , not just her , but her children and her friends. She was very complicated. She felt them all cry out, as she settled them with their sounds and gifts out to sleep. Forever Sleep , she said: you and your music. It would take extraordinary forces to bring them back to her.
The dTHRC was a glitter and a glow. Heston flew in and called his student to him. She came willingly back into the fold and melted into the position , waiting for him to take flight with her. She settled deep within him. She was ready.
At last Dark Lord Heston thought, it had taken centuries to reach this point with her. She would be with him for the next 500 years at least , as his student. IF he managed to get her where he truly wanted her to be, then it would be 10,000 years! He would have to get her to ask him to join her in her Reign. Yes, what a wonderful prospect! He was more than delighted!
Yes, she was ready and her Darkened Bands , all of them began to glow and vibrate together.
Hate had come to Rosedrop World . It rose from within! How dare anyone hurt and betray love in such ways!
Ava Prime and Heston sat together in dTHRC and sat in silence. They looked over onto the mantle and Ava focused on the Inkwell and her mother’s Red Peacock Feathered Pen and she turned into him and asked?
Shall we?
They did !
The Inkwell began to work and the Red Feather Peacock Pen , flew up, dipped itself in the blood ink and began to write, you see it all started with the dip of” that pen”, into The Inkwell.
This particular chapter is dedicated to “Lost Horizon”
Novel by James Hilton, with the Mythical ” Shangri-La”.
My mother once told me , you create your own, so , I am. Dedicate to my own ” Lost Horizons”! The New Ones , I am creating.
This was the way, Elle got spoken too , by Araswati Kurgha.
Elle was helping her, own time, own money! It was a full-time job in its own right. Demanding, unappreciative, assuming that it would go on indefinitely. Not ever saying ” thank you” , by treating her well and speaking to her with respect and appreciation. Nooooo. Elle got abuse, after abuse after abuse from that Kurgha.
No one kept their word.
No one paid her back!
On and on it carried on !
Every ” dog” has its day!
Just “YOU” wait.
Elle left in tears , everytime! Her efforts always shot down with some sort of personnel afront , attack: look how you are sitting, look how you are chewing, you have to use the bathroom again? You are walking too loudly, stomping around like an elephant. ……
You need to come on Saturday , early evening , to help me with my Daily Living Needs. I can’t do it by myself.
Drag her out ! Away from her own family , friends , taking up her weekends !
Ohh , just sit with me! I had a wash before you came ! So, while you are here now spend the evening with me! Wrecking every weekend with some kind of emergency, garbage, all of it! Same as ” kicking off , every Friday”! Just the same but worse. This was her” friend”, her “Prime” , doing this to her!. The worst kind of abuse was dished out to Elle, worse than any man in her life, ever: before or since.
This really trumped them all.
Green Eyes, well that one, trumped them all.EYES were NOT Green at all. They were aquamarine , with Gold and Purple Flecks. all her companions, never mind, his hands were “gifted”, very special.
Always cried and carried on about what happened to her ? The Victim had become the perpetrator. If it was thought that what was done to Elle was any less horrific they were all wrong. It was prolonged , sustained and collectively perpetrated.
How ?
Why?
She did not understand anymore!
Being full on job, mother and she had her friends all of them to keep happy also , she was tired! Just sat, listened and literally put through the worst times ! Forced listening to complete and utter rubbish that was NOT produced by her friends!
Crap !
Crap !
And more Crap!
Please go get me some crispy, salty, fried anything with loads of ICE CREAM Shakes. You need to go, I don’t care that it is midnight. I don’t care that is is 2 am.
I want .
I want .
I want it now.
Stomp of the feet.
Stomp of the feet.
Stomping of feet !
Stupid Witch !
Friggin , FRACKING , Elle figured she was , at this rate , idiot primal witch!
A promise is a promise ! If you don’t keep your word , you could loose them all, not just one but all! She wouldn’t risk it! She helped until she was sure they were all safe and well, including that OLD WITCH!
Smash of a glass. For loss of a simple candle light. She had been taken out on a special “shopping trip”. Taking time away from family and children.
She didn’t have any. Couldn’t didn’t care about anything past her own god damn nose.
Stopped taking care of herself. Putting immense pressure on the one who care for her for all the others.
OOooo, do come and eat with me. You aren’t going to let me eat all by myself.
That’s nice what you are wearing. Take it off and give it to me. It will look better on me. I can’t go out. This was my mother’s. I am only going to ” borrow it! She took the sparkly blue scarf and refused to give it back, when it was recalled. She was told, if ever ,we part company this must be returned. Of course the old frump kept it. She was mean like that.
A Liar.
A Cheat .
A Thief.
She was the all the wicked witches put together. She was of course the Durgha Prime, Araswati. Her victim and “slave” was Ellarya. PURE JEALOUSY, was the bottom line!
Misery loves company.
Ellarya worked herself into the ground , doing all that was asked for Stefano,for Giovanni, for Parian with Tristan , for the Celestial 7.
She grew and grew.! One day she thought, just look at what that old Cow did to me. Elle looked at herself in the powder room crystilline, silver mirror, she looked like a slug! She had two spare tires and her babies hormones was not the only cause. She had lost Parian’s twins. HE would not speak to her , unless it was to pull her to him, he could cast his spell and she would be exactly how he wanted her to be. Parian and Tristan were one!
Drop the dead weight around you.
How?
She could not.
She had to keep her word. She did! Her home went. Her profession almost went. Lost her two last babies , until Tristan , found a way to bring them back. She was really pissed with Tristan. All time idiot , he was. She looked at him sometimes , when ,she looked back at this moment , when she reflected and realized… I JUST DON’T LOVE YOU ANYMORE! Any of you! Mostly true!
She was fat .She was NOT that , that stupid. She finally had to admit to herself, the truth. Her best friends, all of them , had betrayed her and all of her children. She didn’t get angry. She was just very, very sad about them all!
She was not miserable. Elle always found away to be “happy” !
She remembered her mother’s teaching. There was one way to be released. Two things had to happen!
Fat friends, like misery like company. Elle didn’t care. NO matter her size, she always looked good. She looked inviting , kind and her partner (s ) always found her and that really just pissed off everyone , who knew Elle in her “Prime”! What they had not realized , was that Elle, had yet to reach her Prime. She was still developing. Araswati was deliberate sabotage to Elle for Stefano. Giovanni watched , because that was the voyeur , in him. Tristan with Parian, always found a way to be the centre of attention, or be there with the centre of attention at the time, craved it, he sure bloody did! Elle laughed at some of his antics. He sure was funny at times.
How could they betray her so ?
Ha! Elle thought! She thought and thought and thought.
OF course it happened. She asked her Mother , to intervene and make it happen. Elle also asked her ancients, starting with her grandma! She knew they would NOT let her down.
The Spirits did , what was asked. Love transcended the boundaries of earth worlds and beyond to do this for Ellarya , their loved and cherished child.
Araswati said the unthinkable: “I DO NOT LOVE ,STEFANO”, and once more she said it as Elle was crossing into her dwelling, THRC with a hidden weapon, a sharp sword behind her! She had broken the promise, the spell. The bonds and ties had been cut. YOU never, ever, greet someone with a sharp weapon , as they cross the threshold , from the world , into your dwelling. It cuts the love and friendship. Ellarya felt it all “flutter” away from her. The bonds, the ties, fluttered down into the earth from which they came. They reached the flutterlanes as they touched the forces that held those bonds, they dissipated and disappeared to become of the past, not the present anymore, releasing and allowing a new future of possibility to take hold for Ellarya Prime.
Ellarya, felt a surge within her, her own gifts and being , and power that Araswati had been masking, were released. She had been bound by Araswati. She was released from those bindings ARAWASTI had broken all their ties. Ellarya was now completely and totally , PRIME! We have said this before, but this was now at a new level. Ellarya would come to learn all of this in time. Dhanya had told her about this, her learning and how each year it would develop and grow.
Ellarya felt it, that surge., knowing in time she would learn the nature of.
Stefano cried out! Ellarya heard him.
Ellarya was released. She never had to return to that fat , selfish , horrible WITCH! Let her rot in her own stew. Let her clean up her own vomit and mess ! Let her sit in her own stinking smoke infested hole. Let THRC be overrun with rats, spiders, beetles and the horrid creatures that can keep her company. Let the dark smoke infiltrate. With that, the false facade of what Elle, had seen within THRC, was broken and she saw the place dilapidated and cracked and broken , the roots that came through the wall. The worn upholstery , that was thin bare and worn. Stuffing missing from the furniture. The hearth, fallen in places and broken and functional. She saw the witch as she was harsh and cruel , filled with HATE .She had ,had for life and blamed everyone, for what had happened to her. IT was in fact one of the saddest moments of Ellarya’s life. Despite all that she had been put through, Ellarya had her ” humanity” and still felt for this pathetic shell of a being in front of her. She had truly loved her and it just melted away. Araswati had flown ,elsewhere and betrayed Stefano, Ellarya , their world! All that she had taken care of and given up for the love of Stefano. No wonder their Moms were so worried about him Just look at what , he had tied himself too. Love knows no boundaries she thought. We love who we love. Let it all just be. His choice. She hoped he would be happy, eventually.She hoped somehow , they would sort it all out and be happy someway, together. Regardless, She knew Stefano would be more than “OK”! Ellarya had assured that herself!
HE WAS!
Before she left, Ellarya, looked at Araswati and said to her, Good Bye, Be Well, take care of yourself. Let Steve know, I will be in touch with him soon. She smiled , her smiled and went out immediately to Lord Admiral Stefano’s place.
He was waiting for her. I am sorry , my Muffin, was all he said, as he took her into his open arms , once again.
Elle smiled. Stefano was always her best friend. She stood by him , as best friends do.
She didn’t care about , all the horrible, disgusting things Araswati , put her through for him. She would do it all again for him. She knew, she felt it.
Fat friends, get even, she made her fat too. Took everything away.. or so , she thought. She couldn’t.Be wary of someone with falseness , it will , show through, eventually. Ellarya had listened to all her Dhanya & Mahaghi had taught her. She protected herself and her children, as , she had been shown, everytime she crossed , that particular threshold…..”JUST IN CASE!” Thank the heavens, she listened and followed those most ancient of protection that belonged to her through her Ancients.
Stefano would always love his Muffin.
Giovanni had a piece of her heart. Stolen , but his all the same.
Stefano ,he had given Elle a piece of his. heart. Ellarya would never take one step against him, ever! Everyone should have known this from the start. He did! He always did!
Tristan, just, would “rock ” up or send Parian. She was well pissed with them both. Go on she thought, get out there and be on the Road, that long, long every lasting , non- ending Road. Hit it and stay there , she thought! What a man!, the pair of them.
Ellarya never saw the Durgha again!
Getting even- had not even started !
She licked her lips. She spread her wings. She flipped from horned self , to Poison Avy , back to herself.
She looked into the Silver Celestial bowl and saw what she had become. I am going to fix this.
She decided , she had taken the worst that Araswati had to offer her , this was her form of friendship. Ellarya decided better. She left Ary,now known as her true self ” ARA” with everything , including her guys. ARA C/ ARA D /ARYC , part of the Celestial and Diablo 7! Ara would always be OK. She flitted from side to side. She tottered that balance beam and with her emotions, could cause a storm , a natural catastrophe, such was her power. It was gone , for now. Whether that was her intention, part of her role to put Elle through all of this and then release her in the cruelest of ways? Elle was never sure. She held onto a degree of hope that it was not a complete , betrayal and all part of a larger plan. Time and future events sometimes have to be revealed , retrospectively , she learned. It was all part of the achieving and fulfilling process, and it bloody well hurt. Blood was spilled, over and over, Elle’s blood. ARA had passed it all to Ellarya in that one swift motion: her actions and words combined. Ellarya had a direct path to the Celestial beings, it was part of being a feminine being & essence and PRIMAL.
Let them be.
Let it just be.
Let all the music , play on.
So , it did!
Stefano was back at work.
Elle had done her duty by him. Her promise kept. Her best friend was happy and back at work. She was so very proud of him. He looked just great.
Was it worth it all ?
Of course it was!
AND , Ellarya, picked herself up from her powder room , went out on one her drake. Came back to be Mom and took care of them all, all but Araswati. She never saw her again by choice. She really did leave her. Let them all take care of her the way , I did , she thought. They can’t even ,with all of them together , they couldn’t. And that is how she left them. Together , well, happy and to take care of the Dhurga , themselves.
Elle concentrated on her children,her drakes,and being the best PRIME in her own right. She had earned it!
Giovanni called! Get on with it! You need to sort out the GHS! I am watching you. What else was new! He had been watching her , since their school days. Like that, was ever going to stop. Man, he , really was just difficult at times!
“ALL RIGHT”! Elle, shouted back at him, coming out of his powder room. She did take a very long time , in there. She looked into the Celstial Silver Bowl and remembered it all! She had brushed away the tears, with the memories of the viciousness and harshness ,with which, she was treated. She cringed , shook, stifling the PTSD symptoms with the associated memories. For the longest time, she could not talk to anyone, on a personnel level. She isolated herself. She got herself into a better way of living. She had lost her concentration to read long prose or literature. She started small with word puzzles , the ones she used to due with her Mum. She got some real puzzles and played with her children. She cooked and helped them to learn to cook. She sorted through all the clutter of all the homes! She got a good job with a a back to work programme with support and mentorship.She just worked and worked. THAT ,She could do.
Clear space. Clear mind. Positive Energy and thoughts and actions. She did indeed DROP , the Dead Weight around her and herself.
Giovanni, sat there looking at her! Just what have you been up to in there ? I thought, I was going to come and drag you out! Really Elle, don’t keep me waiting like that again. You better NOT be thinking of anyone but me!
Promise me, he said! You love me the most don’t you? Ellarya looked at him , smiled and said, ” of course” , I do, as she crossed her horned tail with his scorpion one!
Getting even , nah, leave that to the sad and pathetic, the Durgha’s flame went out for Ellarya. Love of friendship with her was truly lost. Not ever to be rekindled , or trusted again.
Ellarya had defeated , all the odds and got back to work at her own and new GHS! Gio was right!
OF Course, HE was always bloody right!
She missed him when he was gone! Got over him! Time would tell!? She did! Life moved on beyond them all!
Frumpy Fat Friend , getting even!
Nice try!
Ellarya was steel and coldly, determined.
She would not ever let them know, how badly, they had hurt her. How sad she was , how badly, they all sat back and watched ,as Araswati mistreated her.
Gold Eyes with Purple flecks , background of Aquamarine , let her down. She could not bare , that horrible Saturday. IT all ended that day with him. Elle got very sick. She managed to find her balance . She got up. She left him behind ,her hearts shattered. Life moved on! She mustered the strength, to stop the bleeding, to mend her hearts. She got up and she got back to work.
Her hearts had been shattered, as they shattered and broke and splintered the bands that contained the PAIN of the Degeneate and the Filth were opened and released into her. She had met and succumbed and assimilated all the requirements of her Primeship! No one tells you that , the last step is complete and utter despair. You are placed between life and death and passing into the West. You have a choice to release the pain and go into the West, let the Ancients come and take you. You sail away and continue your Journey, waiting , for the Wheel of LIfe, in the Heavenly Skies ,to bring you back once again. She was going over, into the West. Elle had finally succumbed, those AQUAMARINE EYES, with the “gifted and special hands” , succeeded where every one else had failed. Dhanya had warned her about those those Gold and Purple flecked Eyes. She didn’t really get it. Ellarya did not expect that from him. She fell and bleed. She was going to bleed out, her hearts having been completely and finally crushed and shattered, by the power that held her hearts , in those precious hands.
Elle crashed.
She had crashed into a new and bright light, a shining Starlight. The Starlight surrounded her, picked her up! The Starlight was hers. It was her Starlight. She healed and got up. She would , now, attached to this inner glow, would NOT ever let it go! The Starlight healed her and she found a new level of being and raised herself up with the pain and being and understanding she was and is a PRIMAL FORCE ! She had joined into the next level of Primeship: renewed, refreshed and whole.
Shattered hearts had stopped bleeding. Starlight healing.
It was Elle’s and Yra’s children, who finally made her see and she devoted herself to them all. The little draklings and the older drakes saw it too. The Jesters danced. The Diablo 7 rang its bell. The Unicorns came and raised the roof. They came in a stampede to protect Ellarya. Their horns glowed , they bowed and charged. They let their glow, their force surround her ! They found her Starlight ! She was going to crash into that Starlight and that Starlight was going to shine within her ! The Universe was NOT going to let Ellarya Prime go just yet. She still had work to do!
Elle knew there was the next battle to fight, getting even, turned out to be the best thing that happened to her! She found that inner strength , she never knew she had.
HER Starlight had found its home, Ellarya Prime, cherished child with Starpower, gifts, Moonlight and Starlight. Her blood glowed with her Starlight.
The Kurgha got her wish, Dr.Ellarya Sierra Brandyn, doctorate certified Herebral Alchemist & feminine PRIME , never looked at her with her face again!
Yes, they barred her , but they could not hold her down or back. She left and told them all to ” SHOVE IT” ! Go on keep it!
They did!
They watched her fall, and fall, and fall.
SPLAT.
Darkness.
Nothingness.
Emptiness.
Despair.
I don’t need to get up.
NO one will miss me , when , I am gone.
NO one will care.
I am gonna stay curled up in a ball and never get up……..
MOM, Oh MOM …. we are hungry! The drakes are here! We need to feed them and we are all out of their Special Food.
Can , I go to Aunties’ and get some and see how our sisters are doing.? We decided to make breakfast ourselves.
Ohh…..NOooooooo! She thought, Scrounged up in her duvet, actually it was Giovanni’s how did she end up in his room, yet again. Oh yeah!
Never mind that now, she swung her legs up and decided that the disaster kitchen of kids getting their own breakfast would not happen today. She rushed down and whipped up breakfast… Nope you are all having some special tea and toast with Bloomberry Red Devil Jam , their favorite. The tea was sweet like Chai and a special natural blend and creamy with soya milk. The red jam was a nickname for strawberry jam with a dash of black pepper. That was all! But they loved it and full cream butter made out ordinary cow’s milk. ( there are something’s that are just as good as they are, so leave them that way , ha ha )
She rushed them off to Yra’s! Giovanni emerged. She hadn’t realized he was still around. Before she could say anything, he grabbed her by her hand and said , sit down. She looked at him, you mean at the kitchen table. NO, my office, come on we have work to do! She smiled at him. NO, I mean work!
Ellarya , did not really know what was wrong with her. She couldn’t be pregnant again! She had all the babies that were predicted. Giovanni said, we have to get your GHS back! What are you going to do about those bigots ? The ones who don’t know their asses from their elbows, think , they know it all because they are connected and are going to bully you out of what is yours! Are you going to let them.
Ellarya said , YES!
Giovanni slammed his hand down and changed. His horns came out, Elle just starred at him, he was her mirror image exactly! How ? She asked him ? “i didn’t know “! He looked at her and said, “I stole a piece of your heart. How didn’t you know “? HE stopped and sat down changed back and cried! “You don’t really love him more than me , do you “?
Gosh, Elle , looked at him balling his eyes out! “What is it Gio, tell me”? He didn’t tell her. He stood up and said, “ Well you just bloody well think of a way to fix this! I won’t have it , you understand me! NOT one bit! You find a way to fight this! Don’t you think for one second, I am not going to watch your every move in this.
You remember your ties to me remain always, the unbreakable strand will always connect you to me. I have stolen a piece of your heart. You can never have it back. Never”!! !
“I am going to see our daughters, over at Yra’s ! Gosh all the kids are playing and the drakes. Do you know she still has all the little unicorns and both the dark and light ones are there . They aren’t leaving or separating they are as if they are part of the same origins, they are just playing side by side and they don’t know they are NOT supposed to be playing together. If only, it would stay that way when they grew up”.
“You better get over to Yra’s for dinner. She told me to tell you, its your turn to make dinner for everyone. The Great Drakes are coming to help take care of the draklings and baby sit for awhile. All the older siblings , have gone on strike. I sent them all to be with their cousins in the real world. So, just you , me Yra and all the little ones.
Come on hurry up and you better think of something, or it’s back to the Butterflairy trunk for you! And i won’t let you out”!
“One more thing, if YOU EVER see that GUY with the those AQUAMARINE EYES again, you will go into the VOID. No one will be able to find you”.
Yes, Ellarya’s life was a mess! She had kids galore. She had her best friends to take care of; She had no practice, no money and no means. Yet, she found a way to be happy and cook and do all that Gio expected of her. After all, he was still her best friend from school,sometimes she just saw him that way!
Damn it , she thought. She really had forgiven him. It was the only way it was possible to go forward. She would not bare it , if anything actually happened to him. Because , your childhood best friend will always be your best friend .
This chapter is dedicated to my best friends, from Grade 6, Lower School. They all know who they are. All our courtesy cousins, my aunt and uncle and to the next generation of children. I love you all! RIP, the ones who have already passed over. Not forgotten. Say ” hi ” to our Moms. Love to our Dads. All the good times we shared. For all the ones yet to come.
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